I tried to smile,and smile,and smile,but I failed :'(

Greetings everyone,

I just wanna share with u guys about this particular person.Frankly I think that she's the only person who can change my life.Well,she's not perfect,but she's one of a kind.Honestly,I doesn't have any crush on her,but she's just to hard to resist.I tried to get along with her,tried to be friendly with her,tried to learn to be on her shoes,but nothing working.Well,at first we get to know each other,but then,we getting closer and closer.Then,we become best friends.We share each other secret,we often text each other till 1-2 am :) but then,she introduce me about her secret crush.That's the point where I felt lil bit upset.Why am I upset for?Obviously because I dont want her to be 'his' girlfriend.Things getting worse when the jealousy of mine,overpowered me.I doesnt mean to be so jealous,but I just cant controlled myself :( .I had became one of the EMO guys,but it's not my nature to be EMO.I hate it when I become that EMO guy.It's like controlling me from being who i am.I believed that she wasnt happy with me either.So,every night,under the moonlight,I'm thinking the way to get me out from this sorrow.Every night I'm thinking about her.She entered my life and also my dreams.But of course not that negative type of dream.Oh my gosh,I'm so freaking hollow without her.What should I do?What does it take for me to end this misery?I'm hoping that one day,she'll read this. :'(

I tried,and tried and tried to smile again,but I cant smile without YOU :'(

9.59pm

27/06/2010