Drama.

Last week Wednesday.
It suppose to be our day.Our special day right before SPM.I've planned everything for us.I've sacrifice my pocket money just to save it for both of us.I taught that you'll hang out with me after a month of loneliness.I've told you that I really miss you so freaking much.And you told me that you'll try your best to come.Guess what?I was so happy even though you are just trying to come.

And finally,2 days left before our day.OMG.I wass soo excited meeting you at JJ Bukit Tinggi!I've planned what am I suppose to wear for our SPECIAL day.When  I was trying my clothes and jackets,I've receive a text from you.'YOU.I TAK DAPAT DTG RABU NI.' then I asked her WHY? she said,'I NAK JUMPA KAWAN LAMA I KAT JJ.LELAKI.' then I was shocked!'I told her,'BOLEH I IKOT SEKALI?'she told me 'TAK PAYAH LAH.I NAK HANGOUT DGN DIA.DAH LAMA TAK JUMPA'.You know,I was kindda down when you told me that you rather choose him than me.

I was having a conversation in my mind.Should I go?Or shouldnt I?After  hours I've spent on thinking about it.I've decided to go.I told her.'YOU.I NAK GI JJ RABU NI.I NAK JUMPA YOU.I NAK BAGI BAJU YANG I BELI UNTUK YOU MASA HANGOUT DENGAN AISYAH DAN CHARLES.' she asked me not to come.I refused to listened to her because I really wanna meet her.And then I told her.'I NAK JUMPA YOU SEKEJAP JE.I NAK BAGI BAJU.THEN I BELAH LA'.she agreed.but she told me,that she will meet me only for  awhile.I doesnt mind that because all I want is to meet her.

Then after  that,Asyraf called me.He ask me for an outting at JJ this Wednesday.And I told him YES because I dont wanna left alone in McD right?so yah.I told Asyraf about her.Asyraf told me that he will try to solved it for us.But I say.No thank you.I wanna solve it on my own.After having small conversation with Asyraf,out of sudden,tears start to running down my cheek.I know it's gonna be a harsh day for me tomorrow,yet,i still wanna meet her.

I woke up early dawn,and prepared everything.I did my dawn prayers and start to dressed up macho-ly.I wrapped her hoodie and place a keychain that I've personally design for her,in my bag.I took quran and read it.After finished reading it,I smiled.I've asked Quran for protection and ask Allah for his blessing.I took wuduk for the second time and smiled upon the mirror and smiled while saying,' HARI NI.AKU NAK JUMPA DIA' then I drew a smile on the mirror.

At 9,Fazrul texted me.'SHAWAL.KAU KAT MANA?AKU TUNGGU KAU KAT SURAU'.I fetch Fazrul and asked papa to drive us to JJ.I'm glad Fazrul following me to JJ.I really need him that day.He asked me,'KAU MACAM MANA?OKAAY KE?' I give him a sigh.I told him.'ALLAH SEDANG UJI AKU.NAK BUAT MACAM MANA EN?'Then he told me,'SABAR BRO'.I smiled.

As I reached JJ,Fazrul asked me,what really happened between me and her.Then I told him from A-Z.He sigh.Then,he took my bag,he open my bag and saw my lappy.He asked.'BERAPA KAU BELI NI?MESTI MAHAL EN?' then I said,'LAPPY NI.HADIAH PAPA FOR BIRTHDAY AKU.TAPI LAPPY NI BUKAN MILIK AKU SORANG.LAPPY NI MILIK AKU DENGAN DIA.' I smilled and turn on my lappy.As it turn on,'WAAAH.GAMBAR DIA KE NI?'then I said,'TAK KAN LAH AKU NAK SIMPAN GAMBAR ORANG LAIN PULAK?'he smiled.We  were actually waiting for asyraf and his friends to arrive.As I was waiting,I saw ASHWIN walking toward us.Oh gosh!Ashwin.It's been a while since I've met him.I went to see him and asked him,'WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE BRO?' he said 'WORKING MEN' then he left us.

Clock shows 10.30 am.And yet,there's no sign of Asyraf.I called him.He said he's on his way.Then I asked her,'WHERE ARE YOU?' she said she might be late.I told her that I'll wait her at the entrance,she than said okaay.It was so freaking hot that day.I was sweating like hell!But I still keep on standing like a lamp under the hot sun while waiting for her.Then she teted me,'YOU.TUNGGU KAT DALAM.ATOK I HANTAR I GI JJ.'at first I refused,but then I changed my mind and waiting her near the escalator.Asyraf came.Met him and asked him to book a ticket for us.they went up.Suddenly she texted me,'I KAT DEPAN MAXIS CENTER' I rushed to her.I saw her.She was wearing red kindda sweater.OMG.She looks so beautiful.I just cant stop smiling!

She asked me,'YOU NAK GI MANA?' I said,'I IKOT YOU JE'.when we were going up to the escalator,I tried to hold her hands,she refused.she said,'ADA RAMAI ORANG KAT SINI' then I told her,'SO?' and give her a smile.As we were walking,I asked her.'YOU.WHY NOT KITA AJAK LELAKI TU JOIN MY FRIENDS?' She said 'TAK NAK LA.I SEGAN.LAGIPON,DIA TAK KENAL KAWAN KAWAN YOU.AND I PON TAK KENAL JUGAK' I told her'TAK PA LAH.I BOLEH KENALKAN.AMACAM?JOM AH.' she keep on refusing.So I've decided to meet this guy.She asked me why,and I told her that  I just wanna greet your FRIEND?then she was kindda annoyed when I was being sarcastic to her.

Was waiting infront of the cinema.Finally,he came.She introduced me to him.I say.'HI.I'M SHAWAL.NICE TO MEET YOU'.and he replied 'HI.I FALIQ'Then i  told him in a super duper friendly tone,'EH FALIQ,WHY NOT WE HANGOUT TOGETHER?IT WILL BE FUN' then she brought FALIQ to the other side.she was like whispering to him.I stand and pray to god that  he'll say yes.Then I went to him.'SO DUDE.HOW?NAK JOIN?' than he said,'TAKPALAH.AKU NAK JALAN JALAN DENGAN 'her name' KAT JJ NI' I frust.I look into her eyes and show her that I'm wasnt happy with the way he replied.I walk down the escalator with an angry face.I was so damn frustrated with his reply.

Went McD.Watch Fazzy and the others was having their lunch.I grap fendi's hand and told him,'BRO.SURAU JOM.' then He said 'WEH AWALLLLLL LAGGII LAAA' then I said,'AKU NAK SOLAT HAJAT LA.AKU TAK TENANG.' then we went for prayers.In my prayers,I told Allah that i doesnt want anything happened between him and her.I cried for a while.Fazrul tried to calm me down.Suddenly,Asyraf called me.'SHAWAL!DIA PAKAI BAJU MERAH KAN?BUDAK LELAKI TU PAKAI BAJU BERKOLAR BIRU HITAM EN? then I say yah.he then said,'AKU NAMPAK DIAORANG BERPEGANGAN TANGAN  SIOT'.I slammed my E71 on the floor.Fazrul saw me crying,and he start to calm me down again.Received a text from Asyraf,SHAWAL.DATANG POPULAR SEKARANG! I told fazrul to speed up and went to POPULAR.

As I entered.I saw they was on their way out.I just ignoring them.Then with slow motion,I tried to follow them.but they were no where to be seen.I went to Asyraf and asked him not to joking around.Then he swear that he's not goofing around with me.But I doesnt believe him.It's about time for our movie.Fazrul try to cheer me up.Suddenly,they apologised to me.'SHAWAL.SORRY.AKU LUPA NAK BELIKAN TICKET UNTK KAU' I smiled.I told them it was okaay.Then they  left me in alone infront of the cinema.I went to a gift shope infront of the cinema.And saw a cute domokun pencil case.I bought it hoping that she will like it.then I place it in my bag.

After walking around JJ for like 10 mins,I received a call from MALIK.My step brother's cousin.'KAU KAT MANA BODOH?' then I asked him why suddenly asking? he told me,'AKU NAMPAK DIA JALAN JALAN DENGAN LELAKI LAIN KAT JJ LA SIAL.AKU DAH CAKAP DAH.DIA BUAT KAU MCM TAIK,KAU TAHU TAK? then I tried to protect her from Maliq's statement.'EH BABOON!MANA ADA LA.DIA KAT RUMAH LAH BONGOK.STUDY.'then Maliq said,'LU JANGAN FIKIR GUA BODOH LAH SHAWAL.GUA NAMPAK LU JALAN2 DENGAN  DIA.AKU NAMPAK SEMUANYA.AND AKU NAMPAK JANTAN TU RAMAS TANGAN  DIA' then I said, 'EH MALIK.LU PUNYA MULUT TAK ADA BEZA DENGAN  LONGKANG LU TAHU?BERBAU MACAM ORANG YANG KENA LAKNAT LU TAW? then I cut my conversation.As I was pondering what had Malik told me earlier,I was kindda down.Then suddenly I saw her.walking beside me.as they was way ahead behind me.I turn around.And yes.Malik was telling nothing else than the truth.Swear to god i cant believe it.I tried to follow them.Once again,they out of my  sight.

I look people around me.Then I get dizzy.I sat on the bench while baca Ayat Kursi.I tried to empty my mind.But I just cant.Tears keep on running down my cheek.Everyone was looking at me.I left  the place immediately.I wanted to go to a place where I can cry like theres no end.As I was walking to the escalator.I saw him.I shouted.FALIQ! then he saw me.He look into my angry eyes and start to run and hoping to escape from me.I  tried to chase after him.But I was surrounded with people.I tried to search for him,but I cant see his shadow.I sigh.

I text her,'YOU I NAK BALIK.YOU KAT MANA.?I NAK BAGI YOU HOODIE NI.' then she said, 'JUMPA I DI TROPICANA' I rushed to tropicana.I saw her texting.I went to her and touch her shoulder and walk off.She followed me from behind.I asked her everything that regarding about today's incident.She just felt annoyed when  I told her that I saw her holding hands with FALIQ.I just keep my mouth shut.Then,we stop for a while.We sat on one of the bench.Then I took out the hoodie and gave it to her.She smiled and say,THANK YOU.but then,she asked me, KENAPA YOU BELIKAN I BARANG2 NI?then with a frustrating tone,I told her 'SEBAB I CINTAKAN YOU!' then i walk away.she pushed my gift down and she picked it up again.I knw.She was shocked because I had never shout infront of her before.She put on her frustrating face and stomp her feet on the ground.I realised that  I've made a mistakes and I ran for her.I grab her arms and apologised.After mins of apologizing,she forgive me and she ask for forgiveness for everything that she had done before.I smiled.In my heart,i told her,'NO MATTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME,I STILL LOVE YOU AND FOR EVER WILL'.

She then asked me,'YOU.JOM MASUK KEDAI NI.I NAMPAK ADA BAJU CANTIK LA!' then I smiled.We entered the shop.She tried on some clothes.She was searching for a CARDIGEN!Then She told me that  she really likes these stuff of clothes.I check the price.and It 's expensive.I cant afford.Then we went up again.Met asyraf and went back.before that I went to her and says good bye while touch her cheeks and draw a smile on her face.

On the next day.

Malik told papa about yesterday's incident.Papa consult me when I was kindda lonely.He said,'ALONG.PASAL DIA,PAPA DAH BERITAHU DIA YANG PAPA SNGT2 SENANG BILA ALONG DGN DIA.PAPA TAHU ALONG SAYANGKAN DIA,TAPI JANGAN LAH MENGABAIKAN PELAJARAN ALONG.PAPA TAK NAK TENGOK ALONG SEDIH PASAL DIA KELUAR DENGAN LELAKI LAIN.PAPA DAPAT TAHU DARI MALIK' as papa mentioned Malik's name,I was sssoooo freeeaakkiinng frustrated!I shouted at papa because he interfere in my relationship with her.Papa suddenly   had a heart attack!I was shocked.I had never being  rude to papa before this.Mama was shocked and she slapped me on my face!Ouch* I doesnt realised what I've done.All I remember was Malik's name and I become so frustrated!
I told her that papa went to hospital because I shouted at him as he was trying to interfere in my relationship.She scolded me and demand me to apologized to papa immediately!And As papa reached home,I hugged him and told him that I'm sorry for everything.Papa told me,'PAPA MAAFKAN ALONG.LEPAS NI PAPA TAK NAK ALONG BERGADUH DENGAN  DIA.PAPA TENGOK DIA BAIK ORANGNYA.PAPA TAK NAK ANGKARA MALIK SHAWAL DENGAN DIA BERGADUH.' then papa asked me to follow me to putra jaya.

It was my cousin's birthday and papa asked me to hangout  with them eventhough they were all GIRLS!I just followed what ever they asked me to.After a few hours,suddenly  they went into VOIR.I saw a CARDIGEN!OMG!I was so happy to found one!hee.then I went to the counter and ask for one CARDIGEN with the smallest size!Then my cousin came to me.She said,nak beli  untuk siapa?Buah hati ek?then I smiled,She said,KALAU NAK PAKAI CARDIGEN,SIZE CARDIGEN MESTI LEBIH BESAR SEDIKIT DRPD SAIZ BAJU DIA SEBAB NANTI KALAU SAMA SAIZ,NANTI KETAT SANGAT. then I just nod my head down.I sent the cardigen to the cashier and took out RM100.Then the cashier greet me thank you.Then I asked her,BALANCE?she look at me sarcasticly.Then I realised it was RM100! OMG!I sigh.But hey,it's worth it to see she smiled kan?So I just went back to my uncle's house.

On the next day,I told her that I wanna meet her,she said she cant.She got class.So I asked Fiqa,my best buddy,to sent my give for her.She agreed.OMG.Thank you Fiqa!I really owe you one.On last monday,Fiqa told me that when she recieved the gift,she smiled.and smiled.and continueee smilingggg!OMG!I wish i was there to see she smile! hee. OMG.I just love to see she smiling.and swear to god that I will do anything to make sure that she continue smiling. :) I love you soooo muuccch! :-*